Tense

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I'll likely continue work on this journal page at some point. It could use more collage and paint, but for now I am done.

Having a hard time getting my ass in gear today. I've wasted more time than I'd care to admit. I'm going to regret it later when all the undone things collapse onto my head, but I just can't seem to stick to anything. ADD-ish to the max. Only halfway here. Many things contributing to this I am sure, but one main one. One of my boys is away on a school field trip. Usually myself or the Dh can volunteer to accompany him, but today that did not work out. He doesn't have his own EA, just one young and moderately overwhelmed teacher. I am sure he will do well in coping with the sensory/social/executive function/rigidity type stuff. I feel he's ready. He feels he's ready. But there will be food involved as well. Food? Big deal, right? Very big deal if you have multiple anaphylactic food allergies. Very, big, fat hairy deal if one teeny, little mistake can land you in the hospital or worse.

So today finds me at a loose end, losing my train of thought, wandering away halfway through a job, unable to really settle to anything or accomplish much. He'll be OK. I know he is ready for this part of it too.

But am I?

Can't wait until the moment when I see him stumping through the snow across the schoolyard, backpack on his back, scowl on his face, weaving to and fro to avoid any possible contact with the other kids as he makes his way to the car (yup, that's muh boy). Safe and sound.