Long, lazy days. Busy being unbusy. Me & muh boys -swimming, gaming, reading, playing, arguing, talking, cooking, laughing. Another summer slips past. This one thoroughly golden -so much sunshine and yellow-haired boys with sun-bronzed skin, and blue, blue eyes.
The boys have grown up so much. A good foot taller, with feet bigger than mine. E sometimes makes me tea in the mornings. L knows how to vacuum. They are in turn both LOUD and taciturn. They are intense. They need explanations and reasons for everything. Nothing Mom says goes unquestioned. Emotions are quick. Lightening strikes of anger cleaving to despair, but then joy bubbling up the next moment, and over again. The pace is dizzying. Misunderstandings run rampant. There is no easy going. There is herculean effort, on my part and especially on theirs -effort to understand, to be patient, to do and say the right thing at the right time (damn those social skills are hard!), and to act with love and strength of spirit.
There is a deep ache of pride and loss as I watch them grow. Love them hard and let them go, that's the only option.
I'm ready to be back. Ready to blog and share. Can't wait to read and catch up. I feel open again.
This summer was so good for me. I feel a strong return to self. I feel excited about life again, and I am hoping that I have stockpiled enough sunshine to last through the long winter.
There is so much to look forward to this fall! I am ready for the boys to go back to school. My patience banks are a leetle depleted at this point. I could use the break from the intensity of the triad relationship between boys & mom that school provides, and we could all use the structure. So back to school is this coming Thursday, and I am looking forward to getting back to some art. I signed up for Julie & Chris' Layer Love 2.0, but haven't even had a chance to take a look yet. I am eager to get going on that, and I am burgeoning with my own ideas. I am ready.
There are so many things coming up:
-Sept 4th (tomorrow!) kicks off the Lord of the Rings Book Club with my sons & sisters (the elder two)
-Sept 22nd is Bilbo & Frodo's birthday! We're going on a hobbit walk, and having a hobbit-style feast!
-early October we're going to my parents for Canadian Thanksgiving & the whole fam will be there
-Halloween= pumpkin carving & trick or treating with the boys
-End of November is The Very Big Trip. 12 days jam packed with fambly fun in Orlando. I am still obsessing over the trip, although over the summer it has receded to a dull roar. I'm sure I will be full blown consumed again as we get closer. My illustrious friend Mr. Ch suggested I start a trip blog as an outlet (which I think may have been code for "shaddap about Disney World already!"), and so I did. I decided not to blog here, because a lot of it will be details about theme parks and how to tackle them with a slew of special needs, and I didn't want to spam this blog with such. I also have the new blog set to private for now. I want to be able to post lots of pictures without infringing on my family's privacy. So if anyone would like to follow along, let me know in comments and include an email address, and I'll send you an invitation. I will continue to blog here, or rather resume blogging here, especially when I actually have some new artworks to show.
Anyway I am really looking forward to the coming months, and am happy to be "back".
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